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LOTS of stuf happening this week!  19 weeks is the official halfway point to full-term twin gestation.  Yes folks, we’ve officially made it halfway!  For that, I think I deserve a medal – but I’ll wait for the true gift that comes at the finish line.  Here are some things that have occurred during this 19th week –

Registering

Okay, so registering should be fun and exciting right?  Not so much.  You see, I’m pretty freakin’ good at registering for wine glasses (and knowing just what to do with them) and home decor but registering for baby stuff was WAY beyond me.  Me and the husband ventured out this past weekend and went to three stores.  The first was Buy Buy Baby since they had the bedding that I wanted – except they didn’t.  It was one they didn’t carry on hand but have it on the website only.  Wonderful.  But we poked around and then headed out to the Baby Furniture Warehouse to look for another crib (World’s Greatest Cousin is giving me her crib so we only need to buy one!) since the All Knowing Julie got hers there and they are really nice.  This place kind of skeeved me and the husband out a bit – and everything was seriously between $800-1,000 a piece.  All Knowing Julie got a hell of a deal for hers – and we couldn’t find that…nevermind in the color wood we wanted.  So we left there rather quickly and headed to the baby shit mecca, also known as Babies R Us.  It was at that moment that I wanted to turn right around and walk out and forget this ever happened.  I’ve never been so overwhelmed in my life…well, until I got the book they give you to “help” you with your registry.  We essentially spent 2 hours walking around the store CLUELESS as to what we were doing.  I had some good tips from the All Knowing Julie – but finding a sales associate who could give us more information or help us was like pulling teeth from an alligator.  Here are two things that could have helped this experience:  1 – have people on hand (or as Julie suggested – hire moms to help) to provide guidance and literally walk around with you and 2 – offer snacks.  We were there for so long and I was getting so run down and cranky a.k.a. I needed something to eat – they should give us preggos some trail mix or something while we’re there!  Anyway, we headed home where I proceeded to spend – no joke – 6 more hours over the course of that night and the next day tweaking the registry to a point where I think we’re finally there.  Holy crap.  It was one of the few times during this pregnancy that I really wished I could have had a nice stiff drink…speaking of stiff drinks…

I turned 31 on Monday!

This was an interesting birthday – it was one of the few times that I wasn’t waking up in a warm, tropical location on my birthday and I didn’t have the option to enjoy a nice, fruity umbrella drink at lunch, dinner, and in between.  I must admit – I’m spoiled.  In the 8 birthdays I’ve spent with my husband, I’ve been away for more than half of them.  Disney, Naples FL, Key West FL (x2), and St. Croix…  So, waking up fighting for space between my husband and two dachshunds in my bed was quite the wake-up call.  And then…AND THEN I had to work!  Gross – working on your birthday is ZERO fun…I can promise that.  But, I did get some wonderful presents and had a very nice evening with the hubby at one of our favorite restaurants, Solstice.  And, although it was the first birthday in well over 10 years (sorry, Mom…underage drinking admission!) that I didn’t have an adult beverage – I can truly say it was worth it and WILL be worth it in a few months.  I did, however, explain to the husband that he best be working on next year’s birthday travel plans – including a place for the peanuts to stay for a few days.  I mean, it’s only fair right?  Speaking of babies…

I felt Baby Boy move! 

It was seriously the COOLEST experience ever!  Last night while eating some buffalo chicken macaroni and cheese, I felt this rolling sensation in my lower right side and I just KNEW it was Baby Boy doing some flips!  It seriously felt like something rolling around in there – I got this huge smile on my face and proceeded to exclaim “OMG OMG OMG” to Chris and I finally got the words out that I had felt him move and he immediately put his hand there.  I felt so bad telling him it will probably be a while until he can feel it from the outside, but it was the best thing I’ve ever felt!  I am hoping I’ll start to feel movement more often as it was just amazing – and everyone says that is one of the best parts about being pregnant.  Remind me of this when they’re kicking me in the ribs and bladder, mmmkay?

Other than that, we’ve been preparing the house for our additions.  Chris has been working like crazy cleaning out the basement (it’s amazing how much STUFF two people acquire over the course of living in one place for 7 years!) and cleaning out some closets.  I cleaned out our bedroom closet so he can eventually “move in” since his clothes are in the upstairs guest bedroom which will be the nursery.  It was kind of funny piling all my winter pre-pregnancy-sorry-you-can’t-wear-these-nice-things-this-year clothes up and looking in a barren closet at just the few things I *can* wear this year.  But, I do have to admit, pregnancy leggings are pretty much the best things ever.  I’m going to order me a few more pairs of those!  And – the kicker?  The husband thinks they’re “sexy”.  Oh yes – I’ve worn them twice with tunics and he told me both times how “sexy” I looked.  Who would have thought? 

20 week OB appointment on Monday – let’s hope everything still looks and sounds hunky dory!

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Last week was a bit nutty with appointments and follow-ups.  But let’s get something off my chest (pun completely intended):

My boobs are now in the shape of torpedos.  I’ll admit to being large chested, especially for being a short girl, and I expected them to get bigger with pregnancy because DUH that’s what happens.  What I didn’t expect was for them to change shape – and to replicate that of a torpedo. 

I picture Chris as the Sailor

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
It’s really disturbing to look at so I’ve refrained from doing so.  It’s also making my bras fit awkwardly – you try and stuff a torpedo into a bra!  Anywho, that’s the latest body change that I wasn’t prepared for at this point – you’re welcome for the visual.
 
I put myself on modified bed rest last week – just to try and see if it would help at all.  I worked from my bed (being sick with a nasty, nasty cold helped make this decision) and only got up to get something to eat or pee.  Well, I’m not sure if it’s coincidental or not but the bleeding as of Saturday was almost non-existant and has continued that way ever since!  I’m not getting my hopes up because we all know how I am and why would something work in my favor…but of course I’m insane so the lack of bleeding has made me think “wait, is something wrong?”  We call that damned if you do, damned if you don’t
 
I went to my 16 week check-up on Friday and had the opportunity to discuss my father’s diagnosis of Factor V Leiden.  See, I knew he had this as it was diagnosed a few years ago but I COMPLETELY FORGOT.  So throughout this entire time during fertility treatment and then my pregnancy, I forgot to mention it to my doctors.  I looked through my fertility blood panel results to see if it was listed there as one of the tests, but I couldn’t find it.  Factor V Leiden is a blood clotting disorder and if I have it, it means injections daily throughout the rest of my pregnancy.  Lovely.  My OB ordered that test, along with a few others, and luckily I was able to get it done at the hospital since I was headed there for the second round of bloodwork for the first trimester screening (NT).  Before I headed to the hospital lab, we listened to their HBs, which were solid, and I requested a pelvic exam to check my cervix.  I’ve been so fearful that my body is going to fail these beautiful babies – I can’t get it out of my mind.  So, she did that and everything looked closed so I am good to go for another four weeks!
 
The bloodwork was kind of a pain in the ass – I walked all the way to the outpatient lab at the hospital only to be told that if I had this new order I had to walk ALL the way back to patient registration and register.  Oy.  So, I complied and the patient registration chick sat on a personal call for TWENTY MINUTES as I impatiently waited outside her door.  RIDICULOUS.  I was furious to say the least.  But, we got everything done and I headed back down to have EIGHT vials of blood taken.  Ugh.  We’ll know the results in about a week – hopefully the NT results are good odds and that I don’t have the Factor V Leiden or any of those other things she added.  *fingers crossed*
 
Other than that, I entered my 17th week yesterday and I’m feeling pretty good.  I am both excited and nervous for my anatomy scan next Tuesday.  I’m excited to find out just what is swimming around in there – but nervous they’ll find something wrong.  I can’t imagine there could be much more wrong since we started this journey – but here’s to keeping positive!  Chris can’t be here for the actual scan, so I’m having them write it down on a card and I’m going to bring it to a cupcake place near us and have them fill the cupcakes with the right color frostings!  He’ll be home that night (we hope), so we’ll cut into the frostings and see what we have!  I think that will be fun. 
 
Finally, let’s wrap up with a maternity clothes update:  petite lengths ARE NOT PETITE.  I had to bring the two pairs of jeans and a pair of regular length leggings to the tailors yesterday.  The petite lengths from both Motherhood and GAP were 2-3 inches too long.  Seriously?  I mean, what does petite mean to these people?  And I own petite length jeans from GAP and they’re just dandy.  Why longer for pregnant chicks?  So weird and extremely annoying.  Of course with the holiday, they couldn’t get me everything back by tomorrow so I begged and pleaded and I’ll have one pair of jeans back tomorrow and the rest next week.  At least I can wear more than yoga pants to Thanksgiving…
 
In the end, Happy Gobble Gobble Day!  I know what I’ll be giving thanks to this year!

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Well, it’s RLP!  She told me she wanted to have me come in for an exam quickly because of everything I’ve gone through, so that was nice.  She said there is a ligament that runs basically from your hip down into the lips of your vagina and that’s the one that is giving me the problem.  Apparently it can be even more strong when you’re pregnant with multiples (yay).  I told her I didn’t care so much about the pain, but wanted to be sure there wasn’t more going on that just that.  She did an exam and my cervix is still long and closed – I’m still spotting, but it’s brown so we’re both just hoping that stops soon.  She listened to both HBs and they were super strong and stable and we could hear them moving all around.  She said that these babies better be good when they come out because of all they’ve put me through so far – and I told the babies they better listen to the nice doctor!!! 

I told her I felt like a stranger in my own body – that no one tells you pregnancy is this bizarre.  I go again in about two weeks for my normal 16 week check and she told me to keep the appointment – there’s never enough monitoring!  Oh and I gained 3 lbs. since my last appointment – so I have a net gain of 1 lb.  I think my stomach has taken from the rest of my body, then, as there is no buttoning my clothes!!!

I’m also coming down with something – my throat is KILLING me and I’m hoping it’s not strep.  I know there are some meds that they deem “safe” for pregnancy, but I still get too nervous to take them.  I think I’ve taken 3 Tylenol in the last 15 weeks and I’m not even thrilled about that.  I do know throat lozenges are okay, so I’ll be running out to the store to get some after work. 

I’m also suffering from wicked heartburn, like the grab-your-chest-like-it’s-on-fire kind.  Again, all of this I’m fairly confident is some sort of karma payback for not having morning sickness or a ton of weight gain.  It shouldn’t surprise me that I get most of the stuff people don’t really talk about – that’s pretty much how I roll…

I did finally order some maternity jeans.  The Be Bands just aren’t cutting it anymore and they’re becoming more annoying than anything.  I’ll still use them for some stuff and will keep them for postpartum as needed, but I need a solid pair of jeans (or two) that are true maternity.  I splurged and paid a ridiculous amount *cougheightydollarscough* for a pair of GAP long and lean maternity jeans since a) that is my favorite GAP brand of jeans and b) they have lengths and my shrimpy ass needs things in petite.  I also bought a pair of Motherhood jeans that were on sale for $19.99 to see how those are.  In the end, if I hate either or both – they get returned and we go back to the drawing board.

Speaking of maternity jeans and clothes – can we discuss something for a second?  Why are there skinny maternity jeans?  Not skinny as in size, but skinny as in style?  I guess if you’re a size 00 before getting pregnant – maybe that’s okay but really, should pregnant chicks be rocking skinny maternity jeans?  Along this theme – why are there so many shirts with horizontal stripes?  Are we trying to really put the emphasis on the growing bellies?  I mean – my boobs were big to begin with, nevermind now, and they’ll look like torpedos if I stick a horizontal striped shirt on!  I just don’t get it – I found myself perusing the maternity sections of online retailers and shaking my head.  Maternity thong underwear – necessary?  I don’t know – maybe it’s because I’m not a rail to begin with (but I’m not obese, either – I’m average), but this just seems ridiculous.  I don’t feel sexy, nor do I give a shit about feeling sexy while I’m growing two little humans inside of me.  I don’t need thongs to wear with my skinny jeans and horizontal striped shirt – I need cute, flattering, and comfortable please.

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I spent another 7 hours at the ER on Saturday due to bleeding.  The good news is that both babies measured on target, had solid heartbeats, and were moving all around in there.  You could even see the tiny bones in their spine – they looked like little halloween skeletons on the screen!  The bad news is – the bleed is still there and hasn’t been reabsorbed.  They called it a subplacental bleed this time and said it was focused on Baby A.

Yesterday, I had my monthly OB appointment and came prepared with my husband and a list of questions a mile long.  (You’ll love this one: when I got my OB card back that tracks everything my OB had left the sticky note in there that the nurse had written that said “Has lots of questions”…I might start getting a reputation at this practice!)  This was my meeting of the 3rd OB other than my main one and I absolutely LOVED her. She sat right down and allowed me to pepper her with my questions (and even my husband slid a few in there).  Basically, she didn’t have the actual prints of the u/s from Saturday but had the report and she thinks it’s the same bleed and not another one – but doesn’t know for sure. Apparently, perigestational bleeds / subplacental bleeds / and SCHs are essentially the same thing.  Who knew?  It is about 3cm at it’s longest length and it’s kind of an oblong shape (which makes me think it’s the same since that is how the original one was).  She repeated what I assumed and that there is absolutely nothing that can be done, nothing can be taken or stopped as far as medicines, vitamins, and supplements go, no amount of bed rest would help, and it’s a wait and see game.  I don’t like waiting and seeing – I just want it to stop already and for everything to be okay.  I’m not asking much, I don’t think.

Essentially, the placentas are generating new cells all the way through Week 14 (I’m currently 12w1d).  As the new cells generate, they dig into the uterine wall.  This is what can sometimes create these bleeds as they continue to dig and implant. She said that the bleeding should stop on or about Week 14 as that is when the cells stop generating and the placenta just increases in size at that point.  She said by Week 12, you’re miscarriage rate is less than 1% – without bleeding.  Since I was diagnosed with bleeding at Week 9, my miscarriage rate was at 50% (TOTALLY didn’t know that one…) but that with each week that goes by, it drops.  So I’m probably around the 40% mark now – but there’s no black and white formula for it.  That is a scary number that I don’t like – but what we’re holding onto is that both babies have been thriving so far and don’t appear to be affected by all the bleeding.  Our new target is 14 weeks – 2 weeks from yesterday. And with that, we likely will hold off announcing the pregnancy more broadly until then.  As I’ve said, it’s always an exciting thing to announce – but telling the story of a loss is much, much harder.  I’m being a little extra cautious about it – but I think I have to at this point.  Although, my intent to not buy maternity clothes yet may have to be waived as I’m running out of yoga pants…and none of my jeans fit.  I did the rubberband trick last night with a pair of jeans so I could go out to dinner.  Oy.  And to think I’ve actually LOST 2 lbs. since my first OB visit?!  Must be from stress as I’m eating and my pants DO NOT fit. 

In more positive news, we got to hear the heartbeats for the first time yesterday!!  That was totally awesome and I’m so glad my husband got to hear that before he leaves for his six weeks of training.  Baby B was the first one and you could hear him / her moving, too – not shocking as that baby never stops moving I’m convinced.  Baby A’s was a little slower – but we’ve already coined him / her with being lazy, so not surprising there. She also checked my cervix as the hospital indicated I did not have a mucus plug (something I thought was essential, but apparently it isn’t) and everything is sealed up nice and tight.

So – we are status quo right now.  No heavy lifting, complete “pelvic rest”, and just try and lie low.  If the red blood returns or the flow increases, I have to go back.  Last night, the flow was probably the heaviest it has been – but I just don’t think it makes sense to call today since I was just seen yesterday and I have my first trimester scan on Thursday, so I’ll get to see them again (with my lovely SIL who has agreed to come along!) and hopefully they’ll still be looking good.  If you read this and are the praying type, please keep the peanuts in your prayers.  We all need them right now!

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I can proudly say we made it from Week 9 to Week 10 without any sort of run to the ER or OB incident, so that’s a success right?  But of course on Monday I had some major black/dark brown Crinone (progesterone suppository) discharge and did kind of freak out for a second.  I did some clearing out Tuesday morning (I know, wicked fucking gross but, alas, this is my pregnancy…) and it was much less throughout the day on Tuesday and Wednesday (just little flecks which is quasi-normal for me and Crinone) and today I did some more “cleaning” and it seems to be all jammed up in there.  It’s so damn gross and it was just so weird that it was so dark and so much with the Crinone but I am proud of myself for not freaking out and not running to my OB demanding an u/s. No cramping and everything else relatively normal so I have to think I shouldn’t be concerned.  It’s probably just some old blood from the perigestational bleed – at least that is what I keep telling myself.  I just want to see the babies on the 20th at my first trimester (NT) scan and know all is okay – I sure hope it is…

My damn MIL asked Chris yesterday when we were going public. There is a family event this Sunday (that I can’t attend due to a charity dinner I’ve committed to) and I think she wanted to tell everyone!!! At first I was pissed that SHE wants to tell OUR news, but then I calmed down enough to be happy that at least she asked. That, of course, doesn’t mean that with a few Pinot Grigios in her she won’t spill the beans anyway but here’s to hoping. People just don’t understand that it’s TOO SOON. I will be comfortable going public once I see them again and if everything is okay. And, it’s our story to tell. UGH.

I just can’t believe how low symptom this pregnancy has been and it makes me super nervous for the scan on the 20th.  I feel like they’re going to find something wrong or everything won’t all be okay…  *sigh*  Damn infertility has made me completely unable to relax into this pregnancy.  I have to keep telling myself that I am literally sitting in the 95% of bringing home at least one, if not two, babies.  Those are pretty good odds.  If only I could buy myself an u/s machine…  I am going to borrow my cousin’s fetal doppler and I plan on using that to check in on them.  I don’t think you can hear their HBs yet, though, since I’m only 10w3d.  But ya, the only symptoms are pure exhaustion and peeing often.  Everyone keeps telling me how lucky I am that I haven’t puked once – but sometimes I wish I was so that I’d know things were still okay.  Crazy, I know.

I have woke up the last few mornings feeling kind of crappy – like I’m coming down with a cold.  I’m trying not to freak out but I wonder if I should be checking my temperature and at what point is a cold / flu / strep risky to the babies?  God, I know NOTHING about this stuff!  I don’t even mind suffering through the cold but I just want to be sure everything remains okay with the babies.  In the meantime, I’m eating soup and drinking lots of fluids and trying to just lay low…

I am surprisingly still fitting in most of my clothes – I’m not saying they look all that great, but I am still fitting.  I am reading Belly Laughs by Jenny MacCarthy and it is so true – I’m at the stage where it looks like I’m fat and not pregnant.  Annoying!  I refuse to buy maternity clothes until after my first trimester (NT) scan on the 20th – once I know everything looks good, then I think I’ll be able to settle into my second trimester and embrace some of this stuff.  In the meantime, I laughed my tuckus off when I was looking through these wicked funny maternity shirts.  You know I’ll be buying a few of these!!!

EDIT:  Got a call back from Nurse Karen (oh how I miss her!) and I can stop the Crinone now!!  Yay, no more grossness!  She said they usually stop it around 7-8 weeks – which would have been nice to know when they graduated me…  But, I don’t think it can do any harm to the babies since some women are on it through 12 weeks.  I can’t even imagine what it’s going to be like without gunk coming out of my vagina!!!  I’ll be a whole new woman!

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